I Can't take this anymore..
Im so digusted with myself, im unhappy
with my body im size 2-3 an all i want is to 
be SMALLER!! 
Fasting doesnt work for me cause of all 
temptations & the stress in my life!! 

Turn 16 02/13.. 
Finally; Then My "MOTHER" i dunno
she has completely lost her damn mind..
cause for some reason she acting like she aint
got fucking kids!! WTF?? Parents these days are
really fucked up.. & its like the got a memo be
a bitch to your kids.. Ugh ..

Im so sick Physically & Emotionally ..
that i missed 11 days of school & my dick 
of Ass. Princple is taking it to court .. 
For 1 reason: friday i went to my gym locker
to get my stuff & sum chick got her ugg boats 
stolen.. First off them are so ugly,  & i aint that 
desperate for anything to take it.. 
So he tried to push me to confess to something
i didnt do an since nobody is saying anything 
he is using this to try an push something..

Yeah good friends with my mother & knows
damn well ive never missed any school until my
hoem life with her got BAD!! So if i gotta go to DH
all i can say is its better than HOME!!

But My dad is trying to get my out of this
enviroment.. Cause since about 7th grade
ive been a major cutter & was ana.. for the longest
but it slowed down cause as i got thinner i was happier
then i moved to akron & was kool..
But im back n this hell hoel & Shit is about to 
break lose.. 

Theres a point when a teenage girl has so much
stress & two people are keeping her stable.. 
while the other half of her family is trying to save
her.. but the hidden eye never shows what 
its causing.. 
If  she cant stay stable itll all fade,
nothing left of her but memories people
have pictures from years that have
pasted & love they had but she 
could not feel..
These words are spoken from the 
truest place -- MY HEART!!